I suppose starting from the beginning would be a good place to start. Sept 13 I went into the ER for severe abdominal pain. Turns out it was acute appendicitis. I was going under for surgery by 6:30 that night and was unable to work for an entire week cause I wasn't able to lift anything and the pain meds I was on. It's in times like these that you find out who your friends are. Granted, Facebook posts are all right with me, because that's how most people communicate these days. For the entire week, there were only a select few that kept in touch with me (besides family). It wasn't fun for me having to stay home. Yes, it was like a mini-vacation, but I really wasn't thrilled that I had to use vacation time for it. Anyways. The only cards I got were from my sister and aunt, balloons from sister and niece and my parents spoiled me and took care of me. Other than that, I didn't get much, not even from work (from where I have been for five years now). Nothing. I just really don't like how I have been so nice to people. I always am. I pitch in if someone needs something and chip in for people at work. That first day back at work was the worst. I went home and cried because of how terrible I felt and how replaceable I felt. It's almost as if me being gone from surgery didn't phase them-work, I mean. It just seems to me like they pick and choose who they want to favor, who they want to do nice things for. It's not fair. At all. And now I have these scars on my stomach and I hate how they look. Yes, they're apart of me now but it sucks that I feel so not me.
I don't feel like I used to. I've been happy, yes, but not...me. There are so many things going on in my life that I just can't get over the fact that I feel so expendable. That if something happens, it won't matter to people. Yeah, I know, totally different from my facebook/twitter updates most of the time, but I don't care. This is how I feel. People put on on acts all the time to hide their pain. This is me showing that I'm in pain. I'm not me. I need to find where I belong. It'll take time, but I need to find what makes me feel good. I have faith that I can overcome this obstacle and find my place in this world. I know I can. I really hope I can.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
I need to put this out there. There are things that have started to happen that I'm really, really not pleased with. If you've been watching my Facebook and seeing posts about change. Pay attention here.
For as long as I can remember, I've always loved going to the Pennsylvania Renaissance Faire. I really didn't start going til 2008 when I went with Summer Camp for the Youth Day there. Now I'm a season pass holder and have been since 2009. This year is different though. Mind you, it's an entirely different cast, save for a few old faces, which is fine. I actually have loved getting to know their faces and their character names. But there is a fine line between getting to know them and not following them around or being obnoxious. I really am tired of how some people are acting at Faire. One of whom, I had considered a friend, since I was the one that introduced her to everyone there last year, has become like them.
For as long as I can remember, I've always loved going to the Pennsylvania Renaissance Faire. I really didn't start going til 2008 when I went with Summer Camp for the Youth Day there. Now I'm a season pass holder and have been since 2009. This year is different though. Mind you, it's an entirely different cast, save for a few old faces, which is fine. I actually have loved getting to know their faces and their character names. But there is a fine line between getting to know them and not following them around or being obnoxious. I really am tired of how some people are acting at Faire. One of whom, I had considered a friend, since I was the one that introduced her to everyone there last year, has become like them.
Friday, June 29, 2012
A date...among other things.
I've been single for quite a while now and really haven't gone on any dates. I've tried all the dating sites (mainly the free ones, since on Match you can only email/IM someone if you have a paid account). Hell, I was rejected by eHarmony years ago. It said that I "wouldn't benefit from their services". So needless to say, I didn't even both joining that site after that.
There have been a few hit and misses over the years since I've joined OkCupid and PlentyofFish (both are good, in my opinion). I've talked (via the sites) with people that really only want to hook up and leave it at that, when I'm looking for something more. I still am, actually. Then there's the others that want to meet you but then just shy away and never talk to you again.
But, that's besides the point. I did meet a guy via PlentyofFish (pof.com) and we hit it off great. On the internet, it's obvious you cannot tell how someone is wording something as it's just words on a screen. Right off the bat, I wasn't so sure about this guy. But then I started to pick up on the sarcasm and little jokes he put in here and there. We swapped numbers and started to text and talk to each other on the phone. Last Friday we met for the first time. We went out to dinner at Friendly's, which was really great. We met at 8:15ish and we took our time and ate, talked a lot. It was really, really nice. We geeked out over the funniest things! Honestly, it was pretty awesome to talk to someone and just...talk about anything and everything. We even were bickering as if we were a married couple! And we did act like kids and get THE best ice cream ever after dinner.
Yes, you get to eat out of a sand castle - they give you the sprinkles - and to top it off - you get to keep the sand castle itself! Yeah, we totally had a blast. There was this kid at the table across from us that wasn't sure about it. His mom pointed out that we had them and he had to get it seeing us with it. And he did. It was really a great dinner and I didn't think I would've connected so well with someone like that. It's been a while since that's happened. After dinner, we went to the movie theater, where we saw "BRAVE". Yes, we saw "BRAVE" cause we both wanted to see it. At least we agreed on a movie, which was awesome.
After the movie was all said and done, we walked out and I kinda hesitated. He wanted to put his hands around me and hold me. I was nervous. I honestly haven't had a guy hold me or anything in a long time. Yes, I'm admitting that to the world. But...it's true. In a way, I feel like I disappointed him that I didn't let him hold me or let alone kiss me. But it shouldn't matter as it was our first date. Still, I didn't like how he just left it at that and drove off. I had a great time that night and felt like I fudged it up. Thanks to an awesome friend, later that night, told me that if he respects me and such he'll text/call in a day or two. And I really appreciated those words, because I was nervous that he wouldn't text/call me. Low and behold, the next morning, he texted me when I was on my way to the Celtic Fling. My worries were pushed aside and I felt better!
I leave for vacation on Sunday. Heading out of town with the fam and spending a week long reading books, laying out by the pool and just RELAXING. Been counting down the weeks til I get out of town and it's here! Very exciting! In a few weeks, my friend, Nicole, and I are going down to Tennessee to meet up with an awesome paranormal team - Team P.R.O.S.E. - Paranormal Researchers Of The South East. I've been in touch with the team for over a year now and have been really, really wanting to get down there ever since. I cannot wait to meet the team and check out Hales Bar (which is going to be EPIC). Michelle (from PROSE) said that she has things planned out for Nicole and I to do....and I'm slightly nervous as to what kind of trouble she's gonna get us into. It'll be a fun weekend, of course! Been counting down those days, too. FOUR WEEKS til Nicole and I leave for Tennessee! I'm very, very excited and it's going to be fun!
I'm hoping to post more often on here, but with me being busy (especially working the Summer Camp at work, and being just dead tired all the time from it) I can't make any promises. But I do love writing and putting everything out there. Whether people read this or not, I'm just thankful that I have a place to put my thoughts on everything/anything out there.
There have been a few hit and misses over the years since I've joined OkCupid and PlentyofFish (both are good, in my opinion). I've talked (via the sites) with people that really only want to hook up and leave it at that, when I'm looking for something more. I still am, actually. Then there's the others that want to meet you but then just shy away and never talk to you again.
But, that's besides the point. I did meet a guy via PlentyofFish (pof.com) and we hit it off great. On the internet, it's obvious you cannot tell how someone is wording something as it's just words on a screen. Right off the bat, I wasn't so sure about this guy. But then I started to pick up on the sarcasm and little jokes he put in here and there. We swapped numbers and started to text and talk to each other on the phone. Last Friday we met for the first time. We went out to dinner at Friendly's, which was really great. We met at 8:15ish and we took our time and ate, talked a lot. It was really, really nice. We geeked out over the funniest things! Honestly, it was pretty awesome to talk to someone and just...talk about anything and everything. We even were bickering as if we were a married couple! And we did act like kids and get THE best ice cream ever after dinner.
After the movie was all said and done, we walked out and I kinda hesitated. He wanted to put his hands around me and hold me. I was nervous. I honestly haven't had a guy hold me or anything in a long time. Yes, I'm admitting that to the world. But...it's true. In a way, I feel like I disappointed him that I didn't let him hold me or let alone kiss me. But it shouldn't matter as it was our first date. Still, I didn't like how he just left it at that and drove off. I had a great time that night and felt like I fudged it up. Thanks to an awesome friend, later that night, told me that if he respects me and such he'll text/call in a day or two. And I really appreciated those words, because I was nervous that he wouldn't text/call me. Low and behold, the next morning, he texted me when I was on my way to the Celtic Fling. My worries were pushed aside and I felt better!
I leave for vacation on Sunday. Heading out of town with the fam and spending a week long reading books, laying out by the pool and just RELAXING. Been counting down the weeks til I get out of town and it's here! Very exciting! In a few weeks, my friend, Nicole, and I are going down to Tennessee to meet up with an awesome paranormal team - Team P.R.O.S.E. - Paranormal Researchers Of The South East. I've been in touch with the team for over a year now and have been really, really wanting to get down there ever since. I cannot wait to meet the team and check out Hales Bar (which is going to be EPIC). Michelle (from PROSE) said that she has things planned out for Nicole and I to do....and I'm slightly nervous as to what kind of trouble she's gonna get us into. It'll be a fun weekend, of course! Been counting down those days, too. FOUR WEEKS til Nicole and I leave for Tennessee! I'm very, very excited and it's going to be fun!
I'm hoping to post more often on here, but with me being busy (especially working the Summer Camp at work, and being just dead tired all the time from it) I can't make any promises. But I do love writing and putting everything out there. Whether people read this or not, I'm just thankful that I have a place to put my thoughts on everything/anything out there.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Paranormal Week!
(From April 25-26 to April 28-29, 2012)
A little over a week ago, I went to the Ghost Adventures event in Philly at the Independence Seaport Museum. It was something else, let me tell you. First off, I hadn't met any of the guys from GA, so it was a pretty big deal for me that night. And, I have to say, I only had one fan girl moment. We were sitting in the theater waiting for the Q&A to start and for the guys to come out - which were Aaron, Nick, Jason & Ashley. That fan girl moment was when we (Janice and I and a few others) were sitting in the front row off to the right side and they walked by the in the back to go around. I did one *gasp* and just watched and they disappeared. And that was my big moment that I physically saw them for the first time with my own eyes. And then they were all introduced and the Q&A went on for a good hour - hour and a half, maybe, not sure. It lasted a while, but it was a lot of fun. Nick and Aaron are really themselves. They don't pretend to be anyone else. The show is all them. It's THEIR personalities and to experience that first hand was incredible.
Through-out the Q&A, Aaron is straightening out the cloth that's on the table. And at one point, he goes, "Why do I keep doing this?" And he demonstrates the straightening and everyone laughs, "I can't sit still!" And he really can't. He always has to be moving, which is who Aaron is. And I'm still blown away by how real they are, how real they come across - even on TV.
Now, when the Q&A was over, everyone jumped up to go and get in line. Yeaaah, we went and got the END of the line. It was a lot cooler to wait for them and we would actually get a little bit longer to hang out with them. We kinda did, too. It was great to stand in line and watch them interact with everyone, it really was. When my turn was up, I honestly thought I would be really nervous. That I was going to fall over myself and make a fool. But I wasn't. It's like I had known them for years or something (which technically I have via TV; vlogs, twitter; etc.). But the thing that really blew me away the most is how much they really appreciate us fans. I didn't feel nervous at all. I had a pair of gloves for Nick, since he didn't get a pair. And I showed them to Aaron, and asked if he recognized these, he went, "Yeah, I do! I have them all." And I said, "Yeah they're from me." He said, "I know! Well, now I know!" Haha! And told him how they got to him from my friend, Shona, who let me send them to her in Texas to give to Zak and Aaron at the Stanley event. So Nick now has a pair of the GAC gloves, which is awesome. And to top it all off, I got to Big Step with Aaron (I have a picture and video to showcase it, too). But honestly, it felt like a big family, extended family, of course. But nonetheless, family. It was a really amazing experience to finally get to meet them. Investigating with them was something else as well. We were the last group to investigate with them and it was...amazing. We went into the first room and I just stood there and looked at them. I couldn't believe that I was there, first off. But another thing I felt was their presence. It was strong, almost larger than life even. I don't know if anyone else picked up on it. Janice did say, "Well, they've been doing this a long while." Yeah, but still. It was still cool to pick up on that. It was fun when we left, said bye to Nick, who was standing at the end of the plank walking out of the Olympia and told him how awesome it was to finally meet them, since I've been watching GA for years now. He smiled and hugged me. It was a great night to meet these guys that I've been seeing on the screen for so long!
And then on Friday. Janice and I left for Hill View Manor, which is in New Castle, PA. We didn't leave til almost 8 that night, which would get us to New Castle at 2:30 in the morning. I fell asleep for about an hour at some point and I felt bad for Janice who didn't have anyone to talk to. I know when I woke up I was rubbing my eyes just to keep them open. Thankfully, we stopped so I could get some sort of caffeine in me. That probably wasn't a good idea as when we got to the hotel and I fell asleep...I woke up 3-4 hours later WIDE awake. I had set my alarm so I could go and get breakfast, and woke up an hour before that. It was crazy-ness. So I went to breakfast. Went back to the room, fiddled on the computer, then laid down for an hour and could NOT sleep. It was weird. So I walked on the treadmill in the exercise room for what...thirty minutes and then finally fell asleep for an hour, I think. Once up, we headed to Wal-mart where Mike and Michelle were meeting us. It was AWESOME to finally meet these guys in person. And after that, we went over to Hill View, just to get a look at the building in the day light. And that place is HUGE! HUGE! We didn't get in 'cause it was locked, of course. So we went and got some stuff then headed back over. It was something else when we got to walk into Hill View. The walk-through was something else. I had to rely on the others, who had been there 2-3 times already, because I didn't know where I was going. I didn't want to end up getting lost and freaked out. But it was cool to check the place out during the day. When it was night though...that was different. Now, Hill View was my first REAL investigation where we were in the place and didn't leave it for 9-10 hours. We went up to the third floor first and walked around. Heard a bang, which was weird, because the other group was on the first floor. The second sounded like it came from the second floor landing as if someone was shutting the door. Plus we were seeing shadows on the 3rd floor, like people were peeking out at us. Janice got her iPod out and started playing Frank Sinatra. It felt different. It was as if they wanted that music, or no one else played it for them so they liked it. The laser grid was on as well. Another person and myself also heard jingling as if someone had a pair of keys, but none of us did. It was interesting!
After that, we headed down to base before going over to the chapel. It felt peaceful in there. Janice got music playing again and it was the song, "Georgia", I believe. And I just remember feeling sad, like I wanted to cry. So I got up and moved around, Janice had some shadow activity around her and her hair touched. No one was around her when that happened either. It was really interesting. We then went up to One North, where people got to make Darth Vader jokes with my mask on. That should be interesting audio to of me breathing loud just to make them laugh. We had interesting flashlight activity with the maglight Janice literally bought that afternoon. It seemed that when we were talking to each other, the flash light turned on as if to say, "Hey. We're still here." almost. It was cool though. The entire night was different. I hadn't experience anything like that before.
Can't wait for the next one!
Haunted Hales Bar at the end of July!! :)
A little over a week ago, I went to the Ghost Adventures event in Philly at the Independence Seaport Museum. It was something else, let me tell you. First off, I hadn't met any of the guys from GA, so it was a pretty big deal for me that night. And, I have to say, I only had one fan girl moment. We were sitting in the theater waiting for the Q&A to start and for the guys to come out - which were Aaron, Nick, Jason & Ashley. That fan girl moment was when we (Janice and I and a few others) were sitting in the front row off to the right side and they walked by the in the back to go around. I did one *gasp* and just watched and they disappeared. And that was my big moment that I physically saw them for the first time with my own eyes. And then they were all introduced and the Q&A went on for a good hour - hour and a half, maybe, not sure. It lasted a while, but it was a lot of fun. Nick and Aaron are really themselves. They don't pretend to be anyone else. The show is all them. It's THEIR personalities and to experience that first hand was incredible.
Through-out the Q&A, Aaron is straightening out the cloth that's on the table. And at one point, he goes, "Why do I keep doing this?" And he demonstrates the straightening and everyone laughs, "I can't sit still!" And he really can't. He always has to be moving, which is who Aaron is. And I'm still blown away by how real they are, how real they come across - even on TV.
Now, when the Q&A was over, everyone jumped up to go and get in line. Yeaaah, we went and got the END of the line. It was a lot cooler to wait for them and we would actually get a little bit longer to hang out with them. We kinda did, too. It was great to stand in line and watch them interact with everyone, it really was. When my turn was up, I honestly thought I would be really nervous. That I was going to fall over myself and make a fool. But I wasn't. It's like I had known them for years or something (which technically I have via TV; vlogs, twitter; etc.). But the thing that really blew me away the most is how much they really appreciate us fans. I didn't feel nervous at all. I had a pair of gloves for Nick, since he didn't get a pair. And I showed them to Aaron, and asked if he recognized these, he went, "Yeah, I do! I have them all." And I said, "Yeah they're from me." He said, "I know! Well, now I know!" Haha! And told him how they got to him from my friend, Shona, who let me send them to her in Texas to give to Zak and Aaron at the Stanley event. So Nick now has a pair of the GAC gloves, which is awesome. And to top it all off, I got to Big Step with Aaron (I have a picture and video to showcase it, too). But honestly, it felt like a big family, extended family, of course. But nonetheless, family. It was a really amazing experience to finally get to meet them. Investigating with them was something else as well. We were the last group to investigate with them and it was...amazing. We went into the first room and I just stood there and looked at them. I couldn't believe that I was there, first off. But another thing I felt was their presence. It was strong, almost larger than life even. I don't know if anyone else picked up on it. Janice did say, "Well, they've been doing this a long while." Yeah, but still. It was still cool to pick up on that. It was fun when we left, said bye to Nick, who was standing at the end of the plank walking out of the Olympia and told him how awesome it was to finally meet them, since I've been watching GA for years now. He smiled and hugged me. It was a great night to meet these guys that I've been seeing on the screen for so long!
And then on Friday. Janice and I left for Hill View Manor, which is in New Castle, PA. We didn't leave til almost 8 that night, which would get us to New Castle at 2:30 in the morning. I fell asleep for about an hour at some point and I felt bad for Janice who didn't have anyone to talk to. I know when I woke up I was rubbing my eyes just to keep them open. Thankfully, we stopped so I could get some sort of caffeine in me. That probably wasn't a good idea as when we got to the hotel and I fell asleep...I woke up 3-4 hours later WIDE awake. I had set my alarm so I could go and get breakfast, and woke up an hour before that. It was crazy-ness. So I went to breakfast. Went back to the room, fiddled on the computer, then laid down for an hour and could NOT sleep. It was weird. So I walked on the treadmill in the exercise room for what...thirty minutes and then finally fell asleep for an hour, I think. Once up, we headed to Wal-mart where Mike and Michelle were meeting us. It was AWESOME to finally meet these guys in person. And after that, we went over to Hill View, just to get a look at the building in the day light. And that place is HUGE! HUGE! We didn't get in 'cause it was locked, of course. So we went and got some stuff then headed back over. It was something else when we got to walk into Hill View. The walk-through was something else. I had to rely on the others, who had been there 2-3 times already, because I didn't know where I was going. I didn't want to end up getting lost and freaked out. But it was cool to check the place out during the day. When it was night though...that was different. Now, Hill View was my first REAL investigation where we were in the place and didn't leave it for 9-10 hours. We went up to the third floor first and walked around. Heard a bang, which was weird, because the other group was on the first floor. The second sounded like it came from the second floor landing as if someone was shutting the door. Plus we were seeing shadows on the 3rd floor, like people were peeking out at us. Janice got her iPod out and started playing Frank Sinatra. It felt different. It was as if they wanted that music, or no one else played it for them so they liked it. The laser grid was on as well. Another person and myself also heard jingling as if someone had a pair of keys, but none of us did. It was interesting!
After that, we headed down to base before going over to the chapel. It felt peaceful in there. Janice got music playing again and it was the song, "Georgia", I believe. And I just remember feeling sad, like I wanted to cry. So I got up and moved around, Janice had some shadow activity around her and her hair touched. No one was around her when that happened either. It was really interesting. We then went up to One North, where people got to make Darth Vader jokes with my mask on. That should be interesting audio to of me breathing loud just to make them laugh. We had interesting flashlight activity with the maglight Janice literally bought that afternoon. It seemed that when we were talking to each other, the flash light turned on as if to say, "Hey. We're still here." almost. It was cool though. The entire night was different. I hadn't experience anything like that before.
Can't wait for the next one!
Haunted Hales Bar at the end of July!! :)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Hm.
Two posts in a day? Wow. I must be on something! But I think I've figured out my obstacle...While at work, I was able to think when others weren't there or I didn't have a customer.
I think I need to join a gym again. I think I'm going to join Planet Fitness again so that I can go there after work and work on my cardio and all. I know that if I do that I'll have more resources to help me get in better shape. And I know they have TVs there so you can watch them when you're on the treadmill, so maybe I can go Monday nights when they have The Voice on, if I'm not working, of course. But I really do wanna start being more active and eating a lot better. But. I think that if I go to home first, then to the gym, it'll thin out, since right after work is when A LOT of people want to get their work outs in. Go home first, change, then go up there will be a good idea. The Planet Fitness here is 24-hours Monday-Friday. Then they're open from 7am-7pm both Saturdays and Sundays. I'll just have to fix it into my budget to pay for it. Though I think I'll just get the $10 a month deal...hm, so we'll see!!
I think I need to join a gym again. I think I'm going to join Planet Fitness again so that I can go there after work and work on my cardio and all. I know that if I do that I'll have more resources to help me get in better shape. And I know they have TVs there so you can watch them when you're on the treadmill, so maybe I can go Monday nights when they have The Voice on, if I'm not working, of course. But I really do wanna start being more active and eating a lot better. But. I think that if I go to home first, then to the gym, it'll thin out, since right after work is when A LOT of people want to get their work outs in. Go home first, change, then go up there will be a good idea. The Planet Fitness here is 24-hours Monday-Friday. Then they're open from 7am-7pm both Saturdays and Sundays. I'll just have to fix it into my budget to pay for it. Though I think I'll just get the $10 a month deal...hm, so we'll see!!
Another one for the books...
I've become rather offset with me working out and all. I'm tired a lot of the times and yes, that's not a good excuse at all. I work 6 days a week and only have one day off. All day yesterday I pretty much laid around and did nothing. Hell, I even took a NAP. And I haven't been eating the way I should be either. I really think I've lost the motivation to really get up and move. I'm on my feel for 8-9 hours, sometimes 12 if I work both jobs and I come home and am exhausted. Working out always ends up being the last on my mind when I just want to come home and sit down and relax.
I did start thinking yesterday though. I know, I should be careful when I do, but it might help. I got a new digital camera last week that I've been itching to try out. I'm starting to think that I should implement that. Instead of sitting around and not doing anything, I should grab my camera and go for a walk somewhere. Now, if the weather cooperates, I'm thinking I might go to Valley Forge this Saturday. I would go today, but I have to be at work in an hour, so that would be pointless. But that's what I'm thinking of doing is stepping away from being inside and on my ass the majority of the time to actually being outside, taking pictures like I want to. Things change on a daily basis and you can't take the same picture twice. So each time I go out it'll be a new adventure. I'm excited for that now. If the weather doesn't cooperate, I'll put on my raincoat, boots, heavy coat or whichever and just got for a walk around town. :)
Onto other news. I'm officially apart of a paranormal team, called Ghost Journeys (link to website). I was really excited when she sent me the application, well, thing for the website. I had showed interest a couple weeks prior but didn't think anything of it. And here I am filling out a questionnaire of info for the website! I'm really excited for the next 6 months and being apart of this team. Why? Because we have some amazing events/investigations going on! In March, I'm going with Janice (my friend & lead investigator/director of Ghost Journeys) to Phenom 104. For those of you that read my last post about the whole Mansfield event and the drama, this is the event (phenom 104) that Janice brought to my attention and am now going to. All the people that will be at Mansfield are going to the Phenom event in Gettysburg the week prior (except for Aaron Goodwin, which sucks, but I'll get to meet him one day). So everything worked out! Just got my schedule changed around at work and am good to go. :) The next one is in April where we'll be investigating Hill View Manor. I'm excited for this one, too. A little nervous, but I think once we all get there and are comfortable, I'll be good to go. THEN. At the end of July, we're going to Tennessee to investigate Hales Bar Marina & Dam! I'm so excited about this one, because I've been talking to the team that heads up the investigations there since the Ghost Adventures episode aired. And they said that I need to get down there and all...well. It's happening! I cannot wait to get there. OH. And the weekend after that, the PA Renaissance Faire opens! WoOt!
2012 is really shaping up to be an incredible year! So many awesome things going on! Can't wait for more adventures!!
I did start thinking yesterday though. I know, I should be careful when I do, but it might help. I got a new digital camera last week that I've been itching to try out. I'm starting to think that I should implement that. Instead of sitting around and not doing anything, I should grab my camera and go for a walk somewhere. Now, if the weather cooperates, I'm thinking I might go to Valley Forge this Saturday. I would go today, but I have to be at work in an hour, so that would be pointless. But that's what I'm thinking of doing is stepping away from being inside and on my ass the majority of the time to actually being outside, taking pictures like I want to. Things change on a daily basis and you can't take the same picture twice. So each time I go out it'll be a new adventure. I'm excited for that now. If the weather doesn't cooperate, I'll put on my raincoat, boots, heavy coat or whichever and just got for a walk around town. :)
Onto other news. I'm officially apart of a paranormal team, called Ghost Journeys (link to website). I was really excited when she sent me the application, well, thing for the website. I had showed interest a couple weeks prior but didn't think anything of it. And here I am filling out a questionnaire of info for the website! I'm really excited for the next 6 months and being apart of this team. Why? Because we have some amazing events/investigations going on! In March, I'm going with Janice (my friend & lead investigator/director of Ghost Journeys) to Phenom 104. For those of you that read my last post about the whole Mansfield event and the drama, this is the event (phenom 104) that Janice brought to my attention and am now going to. All the people that will be at Mansfield are going to the Phenom event in Gettysburg the week prior (except for Aaron Goodwin, which sucks, but I'll get to meet him one day). So everything worked out! Just got my schedule changed around at work and am good to go. :) The next one is in April where we'll be investigating Hill View Manor. I'm excited for this one, too. A little nervous, but I think once we all get there and are comfortable, I'll be good to go. THEN. At the end of July, we're going to Tennessee to investigate Hales Bar Marina & Dam! I'm so excited about this one, because I've been talking to the team that heads up the investigations there since the Ghost Adventures episode aired. And they said that I need to get down there and all...well. It's happening! I cannot wait to get there. OH. And the weekend after that, the PA Renaissance Faire opens! WoOt!
2012 is really shaping up to be an incredible year! So many awesome things going on! Can't wait for more adventures!!
Monday, January 23, 2012
It's never easy...who ever said it would be anyway??
It's been a couple weeks since my last posting and I feel terrible about it. I've had SO much drama going on that I've completely lacked in the diet/work out department. So I'm going to tell my story, because I want to put it out and away.
Back in Sept./Oct., I found out about the Mansfield event that Darkness Radio was going to be having in March 2012. And I instantly wanted to go. I was talking to a friend about it and she said she would get the tickets for us both to go. She said she did...but after asking countless times (for months) for the confirmation email so we can get the hotel and all...nothing. I can understand that people go through things, but if you're going to tell someone that you're going to do something...do it. Apparently, from what she said, she put the tickets on her mom's card and her mom freaked, and then she was going to have them switch it all or whatever. I honestly got incredibly confused as to what the hell she was saying...but seriously, why was she using her mom's credit card anyway? And so a little over a week ago I contacted Darkness Radio about it and all. Said she had never bought tickets. My friend said she put them under her mom's name. Why? I have no freaking idea, but it made me realize that she's just pulling my leg. She's really making it out for her to just get attention it seemed. It was a complete mess. HUGE. And so last Tuesday I got an email from Darkness Radio events saying because of the circumstances and to help you all out, she sent me an invoice for a ticket and my friend. Now my friend told me she was going to give me her card info so I can get it via Paypal on Wednesday. This is after I completely lost it and was crying my eyes out to the point that I felt like I couldn't breath. And say what you want, but that's no way a friend treats a friend. You don't go and say you did something and leave it up in the air for someone to guess. She left me in the dark about everything. Didn't forward me any of the emails she originally got. I was beyond pissed. I was fuming. I had my heart set on meeting Aaron (from Ghost Adventures), Big Stepping with him and go ghost hunting with him. But I won't be able to now and that really sucks. But, Wednesday came and my friend never showed. So I told the lady at Darkness Radio to give my ticket away and thanked her for the opportunity, but with all the drama I couldn't go. My heart literally sank. I was not happy because I wanted to go to the Mansfield event.
Thankfully, Janice came along. She know who she is. She told me about the Gettysburg event that's a week before the event at Mansfield. I looked at the site and turns out EVERYONE that's going to Mansfield will be at Gettysburg the week before....except Aaron Goodwin. But on that day a door closed and another one opened. I'm now going to be going to the Gettysburg event with Janice and a few other people. And I get to meet all these AMAZING people that I've been wanting to meet! Like, Dave Schrader, Jeff Belanger, Patrick Fleming, Mark & Debbie Constantino, Patrick Burns and more. It's just awesome and Janice seriously made me feel ten times better than I was. So thank you to Janice on that part.
As for the whole weight/diet/working out, it's hard for me right now. I'm going to keep doing my best. It's just really hard working two jobs. And all I want to do when I come home is sit and just relax. I work 40hrs at one job, then part time at the other. I'm not complaining, but it's just hard. I need to find a balance in what works for me so I can get that working out going again. It's not going to be easy, but I'm not giving up! :)
Back in Sept./Oct., I found out about the Mansfield event that Darkness Radio was going to be having in March 2012. And I instantly wanted to go. I was talking to a friend about it and she said she would get the tickets for us both to go. She said she did...but after asking countless times (for months) for the confirmation email so we can get the hotel and all...nothing. I can understand that people go through things, but if you're going to tell someone that you're going to do something...do it. Apparently, from what she said, she put the tickets on her mom's card and her mom freaked, and then she was going to have them switch it all or whatever. I honestly got incredibly confused as to what the hell she was saying...but seriously, why was she using her mom's credit card anyway? And so a little over a week ago I contacted Darkness Radio about it and all. Said she had never bought tickets. My friend said she put them under her mom's name. Why? I have no freaking idea, but it made me realize that she's just pulling my leg. She's really making it out for her to just get attention it seemed. It was a complete mess. HUGE. And so last Tuesday I got an email from Darkness Radio events saying because of the circumstances and to help you all out, she sent me an invoice for a ticket and my friend. Now my friend told me she was going to give me her card info so I can get it via Paypal on Wednesday. This is after I completely lost it and was crying my eyes out to the point that I felt like I couldn't breath. And say what you want, but that's no way a friend treats a friend. You don't go and say you did something and leave it up in the air for someone to guess. She left me in the dark about everything. Didn't forward me any of the emails she originally got. I was beyond pissed. I was fuming. I had my heart set on meeting Aaron (from Ghost Adventures), Big Stepping with him and go ghost hunting with him. But I won't be able to now and that really sucks. But, Wednesday came and my friend never showed. So I told the lady at Darkness Radio to give my ticket away and thanked her for the opportunity, but with all the drama I couldn't go. My heart literally sank. I was not happy because I wanted to go to the Mansfield event.
Thankfully, Janice came along. She know who she is. She told me about the Gettysburg event that's a week before the event at Mansfield. I looked at the site and turns out EVERYONE that's going to Mansfield will be at Gettysburg the week before....except Aaron Goodwin. But on that day a door closed and another one opened. I'm now going to be going to the Gettysburg event with Janice and a few other people. And I get to meet all these AMAZING people that I've been wanting to meet! Like, Dave Schrader, Jeff Belanger, Patrick Fleming, Mark & Debbie Constantino, Patrick Burns and more. It's just awesome and Janice seriously made me feel ten times better than I was. So thank you to Janice on that part.
As for the whole weight/diet/working out, it's hard for me right now. I'm going to keep doing my best. It's just really hard working two jobs. And all I want to do when I come home is sit and just relax. I work 40hrs at one job, then part time at the other. I'm not complaining, but it's just hard. I need to find a balance in what works for me so I can get that working out going again. It's not going to be easy, but I'm not giving up! :)
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