The Start.

Back in October '08, my co-workers started Weight Watchers. Now, I've been struggling with weight issues for...a long time. It really started when I was fired from my first job, because I ate a cupcake. Yes, I ate a cupcake and was fired. I could've fought for the job, but it wasn't worth it at all. I was 14! It was my first job! I didn't think I was doing anything wrong! For the following year, I gained a lot of weight. Ever since then, I've been struggling trying to get the weight down. It started to work, but then it all hit me when I got engaged. I got engaged on Dec. 25, 2007, and it wasn't until that summer, when he was trying to get a new job, that it started. He started to get lazy. He wouldn't help around the house, he wasn't doing anything but play his video games. I was lucky to get him out for the day to go to the Pennsylvania Renaissance Faire for the Grand Arrival. It was terrible!! I wasn't happy, but I didn't know it at the time. I didn't see anything wrong with how I was, or how he was. And then it hit me one weekend. It was when I was dog-sitting for a friend and her family while they helped her get back to college. I realized that I wasn't in love with him anymore. I wasn't happy at all. I couldn't be with him. Turns out that people around me knew that I wasn't happy, but they didn't want to say something about it and get me upset. It's a good thing I figured it out on my own...really is. I started to really see how dissatisfied I was with how I looked. I hated how my body looked. I hated how big my belly was in the pictures I looked at from over the summer. I hated how I looked. So when my friend started Weight Watchers....I knew I had to do it. So I started in November of '08.

Fast forward three months and here I am...25lbs lighter!! I'm 50lbs from my goal weight, and I couldn't be any more thrilled!! I'm becoming so much happier and much more comfortable in my own skin.

Things are finally coming back strong in my life. My family is more important to me now. I talk more with my parents, and they have a somewhat understanding of what I went through with my ex-fiancee. It's been...a rollercoaster ride. But I'm on for the ride!! I'm so up for it!!

Now to move onto something that I am still in shock about....

The ride brought me to RENT here in Philadelphia at the Academy of Music for my Birthday. I got to see it on Feb. 7 at the 2 o'clock showing. My parents got two tickets for me. One for me and another person to take with me. It was...the best Christmas/Birthday present EVER! I took my best friend, Sarah, with me. We got there 5 minutes late, so we had to stand at the door and watch the beginning, which I was totally okay with! We were up in the Family Circle, the first level up in Section E, Row B, Seat 113. Yeah...I have it memorized. Anyways...the experience was incredible. I died and went to heaven! I got see Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp in the roles that were MADE for them!! I cannot believe I was there....I sang along, well, mouthed the words really. I got really emotional at a lot of the songs, because it was so powerful and so meaningful, to me. I love the show, and it was my first time seeing it on stage. I got to "dance" with Mimi, aaand "moo" with Maureen, "film" with Mark, "sing" with Roger, "play the drums" with Angel, and just...BE THERE!! Words cannot describe the feeling I had when I finally got to see the play ON STAGE!!!!!! There are pictures...

The Broadway Tour Cast of RENT on stage bowing...

Sarah and I with our RENT shirts!

((My cheeks look discolored, because I got my wisdom teeth out on Feb. 2...I was bruised.))

And the back of our shirts...mine didn't say anything, so I put my bag on. :) In it is my playbill with my ticket inside, and the book that came with the bag, and Anthony Rapp's book.

It was an amazing time and I just had to share it.

Sooooooo this is THE START of something new for me....a new life of loosing weight, finding happiness, and finding myself again...